As The World Speeds Up
“The world is changing fast. Every structure, every business, every institution that is built on low consciousness will crumble. Only integrity and alignment will survive. So investing in your own integrity will be your biggest bet for success.” @humandesign
I read this last week, and I feel it deep in my bones. So many of us are in transitions right now, finding greater alignment with who we really are, myself included.
Even though I’ve weathered big changes before, I still wonder:
Why do they feel so painfully hard, even when I’m the one choosing them?
A rock bottom strips us by force, while an up-level asks us to hold more of our power, truth, and possibility than ever before. But whether we choose change or not, something wants to break open in us.
So I wonder, how can we move through it with more grace, trust, and awe for the unseen forces guiding our path?
I’ve come to see that transitions are mostly about letting go — of roles, relationships, careers, old identities and old beliefs that quietly limit how much life we allow in. But transformation is what happens inside of us as we hold conflicting feelings and learn new ways of being. Only we can decide how we work through the vulnerability.
Discomfort is the transformation — will we honor it as a sacred, messy part of becoming, or rush to skip over it?
Underneath it all is the quiet heartbreak of what we’re leaving behind, the ache between who we are now and what we long for next and the very human fear of not knowing if and how we’ll get there. Surrender feels like a total loss of control- and that’s because it is, our ego is dying.
But this liminal space is where we plant new seeds and ask ourselves: will I keep going, even when all the steps aren’t clear? Will I stay when my old limits beg me to run back to safety? Do I dare see what I’m made of?
There comes a point when you either listen to your soul’s call — or ignore it, again.
HOW I’M CHOOSING CHANGE THIS TIME
Right now, I’m closing my vintage shop and stepping into coaching, speaking, writing and curating. It feels so right in my gut and yet, it’s still scary to walk away from half my income without every answer in place.
In the past, transitions mostly happened to me. Waiting for the start-up I worked at to close before leaving corporate America to chase my dreams. Waiting for a man to choose me before setting boundaries. Waiting for my health to collapse before asking for help.
But this time, I’ve chosen support- writing classes, brand consulting, a new website (coming soon), energy management classes, and trusted friends to reflect with me before this leap.
A friend recently said, “Wow, it really looks like you planned this transition so well — the shop closing, how fast you sold everything, the Substack launch, the new website, the pace of your posts.”
And I did, in my own imperfect way. But what you can’t see is the mountain of old beliefs and emotion I’ve been moving, long before even making the decision to pivot.
Over the last six months, I’ve been slowly stepping into a version of myself who’s learning to be seen and heard with a pen or a microphone in hand.
My first speaking gig was at Soulward Summit. Then a paid corporate talk. Then one for a community of creative entrepreneurs. And a couple of courses and workshops I led sprinkled in there too.
Each one stretched me to my next edge and brought contraction afterward: thoughts swirling like was I too much? did people understand me? is this really my path? I was hitting my upper limit that says this much power, aliveness and visibility might be too much for them… and for me too.
This is the truth of real change though, the kind that I wish more people shared. It looks like moving forward, pausing to rest, taking tiny steps forth again and even sometimes falling down hard before getting back up.
WHAT CHANGE TEACHES ME AGAIN AND AGAIN
In my Manifest Your Future course, we talk about the dance between our current self and our future self.
Manifestation isn’t just “thinking good thoughts” — it’s the raw, brave work of shedding who we were to make room for what’s ready to come alive next. Often, before a new vision arrives, there’s just emptiness.
One of the hardest parts of manifestation is remembering that you have to think and feel the new before you experience it. Transitions are gifts because they invite us to practice this — to believe in our superpowers before any evidence appears. They’re our chance to step fully into the role of true creators of our lives.
I love referencing our life purpose — our Incarnation Cross in Human Design — to get a better understanding of the identity pulsing beneath the surface, the one challenging your doubts and fears.
Mine is the Right Angle Cross of Tension 2 (Gates 39, 38, 21, 48) — so my life is a dance of sparking creativity, fighting for meaningful change, leading by example, digging deep for clarity. It’s bold, passionate, and calls out what’s really going on with heart.
Closing the shop is forcing me to meet these aspects of myself in a deeper way — a power that sometimes feels too big, too intense and too much for others. It feels scary to push the edges but I know why I do it, to ignite aliveness in the world.
A few things I’m learning and honoring about this new version of me:
She moves more slowly and unhurried. So I’m doing less but with greater presence and a deeper focus.
She anchors before she engages. So I’m giving myself time to ground my body and trust silence before my words take shape.
She delights in playful space. So I’m letting her rest and receive, trusting that pleasure and openness create more than constant pushing ever could.
THIS IS ME, RIGHT NOW
This is my first time writing a piece while I’m still in it. I’ve paused more than once, to consider trashing it until I’m far on the other side of the transition to sound more wise and polished. But I keep reminding myself, isn’t that the whole point of transitions and transformations? That we don’t have to wait to be worthy of being witnessed.
My body has been holding so much tension. My mind has a new vision and wants my body to leap ahead but it’s saying, I don’t know about this yet. So I’m moving at the pace of the nervous system. Revisiting this piece in little chunks, letting words flow as they come and then stepping away when it becomes too much for the day.
I feel especially exposed right now. But there’s no going back. There’s only one way through: staying with my hyper-vigilance, listening when the freeze returns, pressing a hand to my heart when I need reminding, hey I’m okay right here right now.
OUR LIVING WISDOM
Whether your transition feels like a rock bottom or an up-level, trust that both are making room for more of you and the life you asked for.
So if you’re here too, in your own messy middle, know this: you’re not behind. You’re right on time to discover how powerful you already are.
When we pause to rest and celebrate how far we’ve come — even when we’re not “there” yet — we remind our nervous system it’s safe to grow. One day, we’ll look back in awe at how bravely we listened to the whispers of our soul. This moment is a mountain to move so move it gently, inside.
