Usually we can see where we’re going but we don’t know how to get there.
An old colleague asked me the other day how aligned my Human Design gifts were with my last business.
When I do chart readings, I always say that the physical manifestation of our gifts will change as we deepen into them. There are glimmers of them shining through who we are and what we do all of the time. Can you see them?
The brand tenets behind my last business, Sweet & Spark, were pure. The collection, stores and marketing was about joy, expression, originality and femininity. Looking back, I think we nailed it.
How you bring a company to life is in the way you do it.
From day one, in my shared apartment on Hyde Street, I was moving a million miles a minute juggling all the hats small buisness owners wear. I make a really good manager. From shipping orders, to photoshoots, to training new team members, to opening stores, to attending market, to shopping for vintage, to keeping the lights on, I can do it all.
At some point though, I wanted to do more of the following and I didn’t know how.
Take adventures to explore cities and curate vintage, go deep into researching designers history, intimately tell the story behind being a small business owner, put resources towards my own personal style journey, slow down and trust the process of becoming.
Life is pretty amazing though, we receive new opportunities. Even if they don’t look like it at the time.
This time I’m learning how to work through my frustrations of creating what I actually want.
I can’t tell you how many days I’ve tried to map out a framework or vision board and ditched it because it felt pressured. Red flag for having the wrong intentions.
My desire was out of proportion to what I authentically want, which is to share from a grounded place, one little thing at a time. This type of friction is the root cause of frustration, the not-self theme for any fellow MGs or Generators out there! It’s taken me years to learn how to create foundations that feel sustainable.
While my life isn’t perfectly what I envisioned for 39, I do like who I am today and am grateful for all of the moments that bring me joy. Like texting with clients, grabbing an afternoon coffee around the corner, letting myself get lost in a creative flow, voice noting with my gfs, playing with my closet, being surrounded by vintage treasures and knowing that I always have a choice to walk away when something doesn’t feel right.
Here’s to deepening into our gifts and values because that’s something we can control! We’re are beautiful works of art in process.
